Chemo … my chemical romance with the future

My oncology doctor called and asked me to come in. She wants to discuss my future treatment.

Due to the characteristics of my cancer, my treatment plan has often see-sawed between: do this, cancel that, try this, let’s do next … just a week ago they told me that I could possibly skip the 12 weeks of chemo planned for January-March 2014. Today they say that is still the plan but they recommend continuing with my current chemo past December 13th and continue it into early January.

>>> The GOOD NEWS: Am doing well in all of my checkups. Just last week my internist raved how they ran every body fluid test imaginable and that I passed with flying colors. Some test results even improved from good to better. Not a single test result yielded concern.

Yet I must tell you that I feel like a shell of myself from just a few weeks ago. Yes, that is me just whining. I know that I am going to live and to have a good life to come … but … this has been a very tough week. Doing both daily radiation and chemo has taken its toll on me after six weeks. I am ‘alive’ and that is as good as I feel right now.

Docs says that I am doing ‘great’ … as expected … =^) … but they also want to extend my chemo past December 13th because of the theory: comeback could be a bitch. Since there is no intent of a ‘cure’, just the ability to overwhelm  the cancer now and to manage the cancer in the future, then let’s try to do this right the first time.

I can do the extra treatment … but I barely feel human at this point. Chemo makes the world taste, smell and feel like your body is full of ashes 24/7.

Please excuse my whining. I am an Optimist and  am doing my best to live up to that moniker … but …

Critical Thinking … the other national deficit

Critical Thinking - the other national deficit

Can critical thinking be taught? … or learned? … or encouraged?

Sure! It is simple.

Are people taught to question ‘facts’? Are people encouraged to believe that there are at least two sides to every story? Are people encouraged to seek proofs and to reject ‘beliefs’ that seek no proof? If so then critical thinking is being taught and ‘indoctrinated’.

If you cannot put yourself in someone else’s mindset then you are not engaging in critical thinking.

“If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle.”

― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

Prayer – no permission needed

A good friend wrote over the weekend and asked if they could pray for me.

Yes, I welcome all prayers and best wishes … even though I personally pray to ‘To whom it may concern’. We Unitarians are open-minded about getting assistance along life’s travels.

I do pray. For me it is not usually about ‘why’ or ‘how’ but ‘what’. With life being challenging, what should I do with my life at this point? What do I do to make it worthy more today than yesterday?

Along the way, God or Gaia or someone has usually answered: it is what it is. Make your choices. Life is eternal. It just changes state with time. Tomorrow comes or it doesn’t. What are you going to do with today?

Thank you,
Bill G.